Incoherent Rambling

Hey,

Right now as I begin typing this blog post it is 2:05AM and I have had a very long and stressful day, so please excuse the sloppiness and disorganization of this post.

I have been doing a lot of reflecting lately, and I wanted to share some of my thoughts with you guys. After all, this blog's main purpose is to give you a VIP pass inside of my mind. Some people may wonder what makes me tick. What inspires me to put up new videos every week. Things like that.

I can never help but to feel like a failure. If you're a machinima director or make any type of videos on a regular basis, then you know this feeling. I never feel like anything I do satisfies anyone. The hunger to satisfy is what makes me want to work harder. The hunger to satisfy is what makes me want to talk to you guys, too. I constantly ask you guys to talk to me. Please, communicate with me in any way possible. It's impossible for me to know what I'm doing right and what I'm doing wrong if you guys don't say anything. Comment on my videos, send me emails, post on my forums, tweet me, comment on these blog posts, whatever. Just tell me how you feel about SHF. I'm not trying to be a stat whore, I am honestly just looking for answers on how to improve. Don't feel like I'm unreachable. If you send me something, chances are I WILL reply.

Next up is MLG EXTREME. To be honest with you guys, I have no idea why you guys find it so damn entertaining. I'm almost bored with the series now. PLEASE DON'T MISINTERPRET THAT LAST STATEMENT. I'm not thinking about ending the series. That has never even crossed my mind. What I mean by "being bored with the series" is that I don't think it has the same spark as it used to. That may just be because I'm the one making the videos. Most directors dislike their work. I just think that MLG EXTREME needs more. As soon as I'm done with the MLG EXTREME movie, I'll get to work on that.

I've also been thinking on expanding outside of MLG EXTREME and Halo. I want to do something different. I want to make more machinima, I want to do more gameplay, and I want to do reviews. I want to take SHF in a "Rooster Teeth direction" I guess. Starting Wednesday, I'm going to have a LOT more time on my hands for ShawtyHullstineFilms, so I'll try and start working on other projects soon.

Expect to see a boost in quality sometime this summer. I'm planning on buying a more powerful computer, so I'll be able to use my tools to their full capacity. Sweet. High five! I just need to save up a little more money. The price of gas sucks right now, so that really isn't helping.

If you want to do what we do, go for it. Record gameplay, have fun, write shit, make machinima, do whatever. The greatest part about the Halo/Bungie community is that there are several talented artists who express themselves in so many different ways. It's what makes Halo such a unique game. It draws people together and gives them an outlet of creativity. So make videos or do whatever you're good at. Go for it.

I dunno. I think that's all I wanted to talk about. I don't remember. I'm tired. If I think of anything else, I'll edit this post or something.

Oh. And a big thanks goes out to all of those who subscribe to ShawtyHullstineFilms. Seriously, you guys rock. You have no idea how much each subscription means to me. Thanks for doing your part in supporting us. As long as you continue to support us and give us feedback, we'll continue to give you guys awesome videos.

Thanks,
Scott